Everything I do, I do it for you

Crappy shitty fucking weather.
At least my new coat will keep me warm and dry! Aha, I love my student discount card.
I need to start saving seriously for Christmas I know what im getting you but its not as half as good as what your getting me :( if I had a job!!!
I really should be doing some work, Im so useless.

I miss old times, I didnt think I would miss it as much as I do now, I just want it to be like the OLD times, MMBKEA? I dislike college for the fact I don't have my crew, thank god for Kat n Cass. Srsly. Only two years of 6th form, and well, everyone will fuck off to Uni, good on em, but I can see enless I change my mind Im going to be the only one left on the Island. I want an epic sleepover where we chat for hours and eat food and chill, like the old times...



Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.

And now your trying to fix me, and mend what he did

Last night was nice, good to see everyone, shame it rained!

My back is pushing me to the edge, its rediculous. I just want to ride without the pain and akwardness. Its excercise or selling Ralph...They come in at night now from Monday, Im really really not looking forward to it. Considering my hip problem I had a nice ride out, I do love stopping off at home to get munch! Ralph enjoyed the fregrance of Mum's lavender plant so we are now going to perchase fuck loads of it for Ralphie Roo!

'Don't tell me its not worth trying for, You can't tell me it's not worth dying for'
Bryannnnn Adams.

Half wayy through half term, I was hoping to have completed at least 1 of the 3 lots of work by now! Im so bad.
Sometimes I wonder why I bother.

Dominos tonight, again. Filth.




All change is not growth, as all movement is not forward.

Lets inherit the Earth

I've never blogged so much in my life!
But I forgot one significant thing...

Today I got on a bus, I chose my seat behind a youngish man who had crutches, we were probably the youngest on this bus..
I awkwardly caught his eye in the reflection of the window, but he just gave me a smile,
A sort of smile that could come from anyone who seems happy enough, this smile made my day!
I wish strangers would interact a little more, like when an old lady sat next to me and we had a perfect little, out of the blue conversation! I love it.

Keep Singing out keep Singing loud.

I know I've already blogged once tonight but I feel I should do a 'Proper' blog..Something that someone would actually want to read...I've got nothing to do so.

Im only sat here wrapped snug in a towel as I love to keep the warmth of my shower with me, also accompanied by an empty yoghurt pot that looks like its just going to depart from the edge of my bed. But in the height of my lazyness I will not move it.

Still with the huffy jumps of a recent crying fit I've just noticed how much of a fool I am. But I've never felt like this before...I don't want to sound nasty or ungrateful but I want to feel

freedom just for one moment just to make me realise what I've got and what I don't want to lose. Though I must change my attitudes, I can't break down to this when it happens everytime, but I'm open to say I'm scared of rejection and loss. Doing psychology makes me notice what I am and what I could be turning into, though half the time I reckon this Psycho crap is bullshit! So maybe I'm bullshit, I do chat alot of crap!

Oh how I miss the old days, going camping in the summer with Graham! All the things Mel organised were ace, beach hut whattt!? Radical Wave whatt!? oh our Youth, we havn't got much of it left if you think about it! Im wishing it away! I should'nt but I can't wait to be independant! Have my own place, my rules! I crave independance with lust. Aha. Im so desperate. I want to party hard to the early hours with my closest friends remenicing, bringing back the memories. I tell ya my 18ths going to be messy I'l make sure of it, NO K CIDER though. Aha.

I just can't seem to relax lately, I havn't done any work as I have put it off, (I currently am) but I still feel knackered.

I'm very safe in my relationships but Ive always got a hunch that somethings going to happen, always there in my mind. Ive become a whole lot more emotional in myself, I find it easy to just cry when I'm upset I don't with hold myself I'm not sure if thats good or not.

I go through such profound moods, Im a stubborn little girl inside.

As I found out today in tutor Im a left side brain. Also known as the untidy, unorganised side of yourself, but for me im only left sided. Aha. I don't like deadlines.

Talking of deadlines I've spent the last 2 hours trooping through this and I have Psychology work thats in for tomorrow, I refrain from calling it 'Homework' as it just reminds me of Middle/High School.

I miss my Friends :( all of them, I hardly see my yard lot these days, its not good.

I've started to feel like theres something missing, it hasn't been like that for ages.

Life's Tragedy is that we get old too soon and wise to late.

<3>

I think its time for Me and You to take over the world!

I just have to have everything my way aha!

Im sticking my finger up at enrichment! I don't want to do it!

Although the 'Survival cooking class' sounds good...but Im pro cooker so...

Im proper loving life mucking about on my webcam...

I should consider growing up! and soon...

Has been an alright day, Shame its so friggin cold! It just makes ya realise how close Christmas is!

You might have been my Sunshine, but i'd rather have a rainy day..

Love my life today! Don't have to college it till 3! Best leave in abit though!
Art done! Photography not...i need to catch up bad times!
Such a lovely day! I regret putting Ralphie Doodle out in a rug. Winter soon...its going to be a love hate between this season. I love being snugged and warm but i hate being caught in the cold rain while riding and then having to muck out..things i do for pony pooks!
Didnt have to wake up untill 9.30 today! I managed to sleep in thank god. My bedrooms a tip but it can wait another day to be cleaned.
My toes are cold! Must be winter tymmeeee...Not long till christmas! I fancy going for a Sloopy doop with my lot nearer to the time! We need to do Subway alot more too!
anyways Jarrod awaits! Aha he creases me up! An austrailian art teacher that loves 'Neighbours' lololool

oo just found a bruise on my head :S

So hold your god damn tongue

Been a tiring day, I hate wednesdays,
getting the bus in the morning is just tedious, especially when you get the pointless texts that are just well..pointless. Guygiauhcbajk.
Just seen the cutest thing on rudetube, tiny little kitty cat
makes me want a kitten again...sorry Bisty,
Ive got the serious munchies...like I havnt demolished a massive bowl of sweet and sour chicken and half a pack of chocolate fingers! Aha im putting on weight again, though i do feel alot happier!
Gym Friday again! Work off all that shiiiiit. (:
This weeks gone too quick! LML. Havnt really got much else to say :/

I know its mean but its just the constant annoying comments all the time, Tbh i feel your only with us cos you dont want to look like a loner! Kapeesh.

You been acting very hard lately, smoking alot of cigarettes lately..

MILF FACE lolololololol

I AM NOT A ROOOOOOOOBOT.

As soon as i set up a post i forget what im going to say!

I should of taken English Lit+Lang.

Im so stuck to this song lately...

Frank Turner - Hold Your Tongue

Bella if you see this id have a look!

Beautiful man!

My cat is maxin' relaxin' shes a cat on dope.

Sleeps all day Sleeps all night!

Silly niggaaa.

Weathers terribly nice dont you say??

Mind fucks me though! Wish it would make up its mind,

I wish i could play an Instrument!

Franky inspires me!

If Frank and Robbie did a duet id poo my pants! Ahahaaa

OO my bestival and festival bands started to smell the other day so i cleaned them with shampoo and they smell beautiful! I just didnt want to take them off...Im determined.

Well the phone calls! Im off for some dirty ass munchinnnn's :D

So now the years are rolling by, and its not long since you and I could of been Train drivers and Astronauts

Had such a nice last few days, I'm glad what happened, happened. if that sounds right...

Yesterday was just mental, 3 hours of pure Australian art... though I tend to find myself watching other people deeply, I enjoy watching people sounds weird but it's true!

Went to the gym with Cass, did about half an hours work out...I felt like an utter pussio aha

Bandnite...lol, not my kinda music was a fucking hilarious though!

Taylers was nice, got to see my favourite people which I miss alot...

and got incredibly drunk, was unaware I would be consuming the K haha I thoroughly enjoy that beverage! Twas all abit of a blur to be honest! Poor Alex 'Muntford' I really want to know the truth!

I enjoyed the freedom and the tidying of Taylers house this morning!

I seriously miss you guys it's unbelievable!

Ahh poo chunks, Sam Millward hurry up and finish work so we can consume some dirty Dominos!

Girl your amazing, Just the way you are.

Im so pissed off right now, I just cant do things right anymore?
The weathers not helping my niave mood.
RalphRalphRalph. Im so confused on what I should do, im dreading this Winter but I dont want to lose him! FFS, no body seriously understands its pathetic.
On a lighter note Dominos Pizza has finally opened! Takeaway nxt Saturday I think with Samm :)
Im craving the Bestival again, it was too epic.

College is good! Apart from a few little things.
You dont have to get so angry over the smallest things its stupid.
I better be going! Photography this afternoon, mint times.
I have a true hate for southern vectis though.